20.

19.

Yay, just did my 2 week weigh in, Current weight:  191.2


Sept 8:207
Sept 12: 204.6
Sept 20:199.8
Sept 28:198.2
Oct 12: 194
Oct 25: 191.2

Make no excuses, only progress. 
I am really excited, you have no idea!!!! And the great thing about losing weight this time around is that, I have not completely deprived myself of the foods i wanted to eat, i just make sure to eat smaller portions. I also make sure to select healthier choices on the menu at a restaurant. The reason why my diets have failed in the past: I would cut off all my favorite foods and strictly eat nothing but healthy food. I would suppress my craving no matter what and continue on my diet. The problem with that is, as soon as I am off the diet, i binge and eat everything i couldn't eat. Now, if i want a cookie, i have one. if i want a slice of pizza, i have one--ONLY ONE SLICE(remember, small portions). Tomorrow, I will be baking dark chocolate oatmeal cookies-- a healthier alternative to regular choco chip cookies. I am really excited that i was able to lose 15 pounds. I have a lot more weight to lose, and i have faith that i can do it.

18.

I went to the trainer today at the gym and got an update on my BMI and FAT PERCENTAGE:
Current:
Fat percentage:36.9
BMI: 29.5

Before:
Fat percentage:38.9
BMI: 30.9

Pain is temporary, quitting is forever

17.

Back from the gym. My goal was to be 193 by Halloween, but it looks like i might exceed that.
GOAL: MET.
My next goal is to be anywhere between 189-186 for my friend's wedding on Nov 11.

16.

Current weight: 194

Sept 8:207
Sept 12: 204.6
Sept 20:199.8
Sept 28:198.2
Oct 12: 194

15.

I don't hate the gym anymore, but i have had more cakes than i should in the past 2 weeks.
My mom made pound cake from scratch last week and now there's a HUGE birthday cake sitting in my kitchen. Vanilla cake with vanilla mousse filling--my favorite.
Anyways, i plan to weigh myself this week. I have been going to the gym but i am really afraid that eating all these cakes may have hindered my progress.
We shall see.

(cup)CAKE IS MY FAVORITE DESSERT--IT'S MY WEAKNESS.
PEANUT M&M's come in close second.

14.

                                                  Dinner.
                                                  And yes, that is brown rice. :)
I also had a small bowl of cinnamon toast crunch cereal. I'll post my weight update on Oct 12th

Before/After [1]

This is my first before and after picture

13.

It's raining. It's raining hard. Having to walk in this hard rain to go to the gym is something i DO NOT WANT TO DO, but i gotta stay motivated..blah.
I am going to have oatmeal for lunch and for dinner, i am going to have

brown rice fried rice.
cooked brown rice
scrambled egg whites
very little olive oil
peas and other veggies
pinch of soy sauce
 (already cooked) chicken breast for protein.
then i am going to put it all in  a skillet and just let it cook for a few minues

12.

I am feeling discouraged. SO SOOOOOOOOOOON?  I know, i know.
I am feeling really down. I feel like i am not getting anywhere. I am getting so tired of the gym, at this point, I HATE IT! I FUCKING HATE THE GYM!!!!!!!! I wish i had motivation. My family don't care--not one bit. I wish i had support and someone to keep pushing me. It's getting tough.
I am also really, really, reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally hungry tonight. I just want to eat everything i can't. I am craving cake and ice cream--the ultimate food for fatties.

I will try to push forward, this wouldn't be an honest blog if i didn't delineate my troubles and obstacles. I've joined some online communities for support, but it hasn't helped. Wanting to lose 33 pounds seem so far from now. Whatever, i am in it to win it. Right?

SIGH.

11.

TODAY IS OCT 1ST -Monday
I can physically see where i am losing the weight, especially in my arms and hips. I visited a few friends and they mentioned that it looked like i lost weight, so that made me happy. Didn't know losing 9 pounds could show through clothing. Imagine 30 pounds..
I hate the gym, i reallly do. But i think of it as a game, and in order to beat this game, i HAVE TO GO so i can lose the  weight.
I'm actually excited to post an AFTER PICTURE. I pray that God gives me the motivation to keep going. I am hoping to lose at least 5 pounds by the end of Oct. I also feel like i've been eating pretty badly. I had 2 slices of cake on Saturday (we are all allowed to cheat, but why do i feel so guilty?) and i had on Sunday 2 skewers of chicken kebobs and 2 meat kebobs with a side of salad (just lettuce and tomatoes. I DON'T EVER USE DRESSING ON MY SALAD. IT has lots of calories, and i am completely used to eating it without). Anyways, my stomach has been so used to eating the bare amount, that i was so full it started to hurt. I also haven't eaten that much meat since i've started my diet--mostly fish. Oh well.


5 POUNDS DOWN BY THE END OF OCTOBER GOAL...
I CAN DO IT :D I am going to make a calendar and start counting down, i want to be at least 193 by HALLOWEEN


(REMEMBER, IF YOU WANT TO SEE STARTING MEASUREMENTS AND WEIGHT, CHECK OUT MY VERY FIRST BLOG POST. I WILL POST UPDATED MEASUREMENTS EVERY 2 MONTHS. SO THE NEXT TIME WILL BE EARLY NOVEMBER)