12.

I am feeling discouraged. SO SOOOOOOOOOOON?  I know, i know.
I am feeling really down. I feel like i am not getting anywhere. I am getting so tired of the gym, at this point, I HATE IT! I FUCKING HATE THE GYM!!!!!!!! I wish i had motivation. My family don't care--not one bit. I wish i had support and someone to keep pushing me. It's getting tough.
I am also really, really, reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally hungry tonight. I just want to eat everything i can't. I am craving cake and ice cream--the ultimate food for fatties.

I will try to push forward, this wouldn't be an honest blog if i didn't delineate my troubles and obstacles. I've joined some online communities for support, but it hasn't helped. Wanting to lose 33 pounds seem so far from now. Whatever, i am in it to win it. Right?

SIGH.